Oh what a
day. There is so much that I have to learn. My human nature thrives on
believing that I have it figured it out and under control. The human nature
thrives, but in turn the spirit suffers. There is so much I want to share with
the faith that I cannot be the only woman who falls prey to lies. There are
times that require discretion, though. I realize that our culture operates on
everything being out in the open. Facebook is a virtual clothesline that
displays dirty laundry for an unlimited number of passers-by. I see no virtue
in this practice.
Suffice
to say, God is revealing to me His beautiful vision for His grown-up daughters
whom He loves so dearly. Lately, I have been grumbling to God about hormones.
At this point, men may scratch their heads, or roll their eyes, or hold on to
the edges of their laptop to stave off the on-coming sermon. Women are nodding
their head, tearing in their eyes because they relate instantaneously and are
raising their hands to encourage the preaching! But brothers, before you click
to close the tab or type something else in the Google window, bear with my blog
a little longer.
I have
come to the conclusion that the chemistry of hormones is from God’s skillful
and masterly hand because it is the fuel that helps the female body function in
fantastic and mysterious ways. The crazy mood swings and excuses that come as a
by-product of said hormones have to be straight from the sneering smug kisser
of the devil himself because it creates nothing but chaos, conflict and sorrow.
I am no
science major, so I couldn't begin to describe the amazing way a woman's body
works and how necessary those hormones are to not just to maintain life in a
balanced state, but also to create and maintain the development of a life
itself. For those who are willing to study and learn, a woman's body (not her
exterior) but her mechanics are a work of art and the function of hormones are
key to the whole masterpiece. I am not going to deviate onto an
anti-Darwinistic jaunt, but I will say that whenever I consider science,
particularly human biology, it points to an amazing creator, a genius mind, a
supreme force that omits not one single detail.
Generally,
the word "hormones" is a dirty two-syllable word that is associated
with the most unattractive side a woman could ever reveal. We immediately think
of a women behaving irrationally or viciously, even. We think of scary witches,
chomping on ineffective prozac and men cowering or pulling their hair out by
the roots because they have no idea how to slay the dragon that has been
unleashed from within otherwise happy loving creatures. I'm not going to lie: I
have had episodes that leave me feeling like a completely different person. I
do not recognize the shrill voice, the sobbing gasps or cruel words coming out
of me. I think, "What is this? and how has it twisted me into this
unrecognizable person?" I know that I am not alone in this, that is why I am
honest enough to own up to the behaviour and, though it KILLS me to confess,
occasionally using the "H" word to justify it.
Do you
know the definition of "wicked"? No, I haven't changed the subject. The English word "wicked"
originated from the old Anglo-Saxon word wiker (or
"wicker" in the present-day spelling) which meant to twist i.e.
a candle "wick" is called that because it is twisted Something
happens to us. Poisonous thoughts laced with paranoia dissolve into our
conscious minds convincing us to believe a warped perception of a situation and
convicting us of being no good. Something gets twisted in our thinking and in
our reactions and that "twist" is wicked. It must be one of satan's
favourite ways to create division and conflict in our relationships.
I realize
I am opening myself up for a lot "knowledgeable" people to argue with
me that this, in fact, has nothing to do with the spiritual, but is scientific
and it is just something we need to accept or prescribe against. I am not
arguing the physical and the biological. I wouldn't dare because it is the
handiwork of God, but I am going to be bold enough to say that, as a woman,
when you see yourself spiraling out of control and you see that panic in the
non-hormonal-person's face, I think that the evil one is messing with us and
that we can fight it with the power of Jesus Christ.
The
following is a passage that I used to have pinned up on my bedroom wall (and I
think I may reinstating it soon).
"We
are human, but we don’t wage war as humans do. We use God’s mighty
weapons, not worldly weapons, to knock down the strongholds of human reasoning
and to destroy false arguments. We destroy every proud obstacle that keeps
people from knowing God. We capture their rebellious thoughts and teach them to
obey Christ."
2
Corinthians 10:3-5
When I am
having a melt down, I turn on myself like a vicious cat having a bad day. I
convict myself of being "no good," "failing," and "not
worth the bother." I do not merely hurt myself with such unfounded
accusations, but I hurt those around me who love me. My head fills with lies
and in a weakened state, I swallow the lies whole and fall apart. But what if I
were to stop, call the thoughts lies from the devil and call on Christ to
capture these "rebellious thoughts and teach them to obey" Him. As
Paul says, these thoughts are unworldly weapons that satan uses as an
"obstacle that keeps [us] from knowing God." We are daughters of God,
brides of Christ, loved with an everlasting love and are eligible to enter into
a covenant that will keep us inseparable from God from now and all through
eternity. This is the truth; this is the answer to fear that overwhelms us at
times of PMS, pregnancy, menopause, depression, chemical imbalance and the list
goes on.
I'm not
Tom Cruise. I am not about to call psychiatry a quack's profession and tel
people with mental illness to abandon medication or say that mood swings are
not part of our reality and we can control it with our mind. Yes, I am speaking
contrary to scientology and new age beliefs and if you don't like it, sit on
it. I am saying that when we are hit by hormones, by tidal waves of
emotions that came out of nowhere like a tsunami after an earth quake, we can turn
to God in these times as well. There is nothing that He cannot help
us overcome.
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